Why i truely believe in this...

~My Thoughts & Feelings~
To me Gothic is not just a look, or a feeling of sadness and depression all the time which it seems most people associate it with. Nor do I believe it has to be associated with a particular religion. Some would say Satanism is common among people that call themselves Gothic and sometimes it is, but a religion is not needed in order to have an interest in this topic. I don't see Gothic/Goth as fitting an exact good, or evil scenario as far as it's intent. The person places the association with it, or makes it look bad or good themselves, in how they carry themselves within this subculture world. I myself don't feel unhappy in what I would consider my "Gothic" thoughts or feelings. To me Gothic is history, art, literature, movies, or just the thoughts in my head, of something "dark" I feel is beautiful, yet most would find to be completely the opposite. A warm, cloudy, perhaps rainy summer day. The sun is setting, the clouds filled with moisture seem to grow thin and a yellow glow from the setting sun seeps through giving it the perfect gloomy, yet beautiful effect. Perhaps a dark moonlit night, the stars shining as I sit alone listening to dark poetic music, can sometimes bring along lustful, erotic thoughts and fantasies that are pleasing to my mind. Don't get me wrong, I love my nice kayaking weather, but I can also see beauty within certain types of darkness. Yes, you can express being who you are by what you wear, but very little of this has to do with the threads we have hanging off us, it's more so about being an individual, more opened than a robotic mainstream that condemns so much, or a society that sees someone with true individuality as a freak. One thing is for sure though, and that is to sit and criticize others for being a "poser" or a "fake" because you don't like their room name, or because they don't have black hair and talk about suicide all the time is stupid. How do you know what that person feels? How do you know what this person thinks? You don't know them, so then what makes you think you know all about them. To me one that likes to tell others how they are lame, or fake without knowing them makes them the most unrealistic people around, a monkey, perhaps a follower of the mainstream themselves when they think they are the ones so different. Get to know someone and drop the egotistical debates. There is no one definition to the word Gothic. Goth may have a place of origin, but Gothic and Goth are easily tied together. Below perhaps you will gather a better understanding of the subculture, and how it fits with us today.

Waiting on your conscience

My lif has turned hell,
Every moment pricks my cell.
Standing all alone beside the beach,
Don't know where I'll reachh.

Don't know why I'm brooding over a lost cause,
Don't know what I'm living for.
The ocean water has caught my limbs,
These ways have whirled me over.

I don't know whats happening to me,
Somewhere where I'm not supposed to be.
Tell me,did I ever rave at you ?

Yes,I had seacrched for you high and low,
I did find you,but as somebody else's.
Thought i could have preserved you forever in my heart,
But i was wrong,as you were never mine.

Seems like you were born for that fortunate heart
Who kept you away from this unlucky one

Away.away..I'm going from you,
In the deapths of this ocean,
Where my soul will rest.

Waiting on your conscience,
When will you return back to me.

Under the deep ocean,On my sea bed,
No one will ever know except you and me.
That i had once lived for you,
And had laid my life for your own happiness.

Death never dies

One of my very successful poems.
I had written this to teach myself a small lesson.
So here it is-
You'll be propelled to surrender,
You yourself will have to ruffle.
Your jovial behaivior will surely flop,
Thou will be the prey of all predators.
None of your pretexts will deny this game,
This profane salvation will ostrasize.
Comrades will also fail to confine thy presense,
There will be no elixer to convince you.
All you can try,is to embellish your coffin.
Though you've been the mightiest or warm hearted,
All your sanity will not condole.
No kind of torniquet can conquer the truth,
Only prepared ones can condone this fact.
The best possible way is to confront this fear,
Contending to wake once again will only gutt you.
For this Present,learn to accept it,
Smile whle you constrain yourself to.
Erase you hardships and act as if you never had them,
Bliss and ecstasies will be conpicious in front of you.
Convene your delightful plays,
And always be awake to know 'Death never dies'