It is hard moving on

IT IS HARD TO MOVE ON

May be im the slow one out here. But I don’t expect you readers to believe everything what I say. I’ve always been waiting for someone to come hold my hand just like every other typical teenager does. But that doesn't mean that I'm one. Whatever !
Wel..When i say "waiting for someone to come hold my hand" it doesn't mean a boyfriend or something. I just mean ANYONE !
Anyone who actually understands me, cares for me, helps me in my bad moments as well rejoices during my victory.
Not someone who pretends to be mine. And mocks at me behind my back. I don't even want someone who fakes to be happy when I win or who praises me most of the time and when i turn around abuses me.
We all are aware of how cruel this Earth can be...well actually the PEOPLE living on this earth.
I suppose i can include myself in the PEOPLE living on earth because its a human tendancy to do anything for our own happiness.
No matter how hard you try it is little too impossible to find some one who really cares for you.
And now if you're gonna talk about your mum siting at home or right behind you i can still give you an example.
"If a mother and her 2 year old son are drowning in a sea she will try all the best possible ways to save her dear son...but in the end when theres no way she herself will put her hand on his head so that she gets a support to go above the water level."
Here again....you readers MIGHT have another opinion to what I am saying.

Lets get back to what i was saying....At the end of the day you all will realize that theres no one to actually help yu to get out of quiksand.
Knowing this true fact...i yet fell into this trap.
It could be a lesson...but to be frank I din't learn from it coz i got myself once again into this pit.
For another time i still regard it a lesson.
Even after reading this you might not change your view of thinking. And hence you are still carrying on with your best friend or your best ones.
I did the same.
And here is where i dug my own grave.
I was happy and contended with my life and accepted every sad and good moment as it passed by.It was easy to accept them because the sad moments were not as harsh as they are now.Well I believed in everything that people told me. I never doubted anyone even though that opposite was my enemy.
Falling in Love with him was not that troublesome.. because it was HIM!
The person who I think I always wanted.
Haha….seems like a joke…But not for me
I was addicted to my friends and continued being jolly with them.
I never had that negative feeling that, “THINGS MIGHT JUST GO WRONG
The sad part to say is that Even though I got caught into them so easily it was and still is very very difficult to remove this mark of agony
As it is said….if there is a misunderstanding between any relationship it is not impossible to clear it out. But there is always a knot left behind even after trying to tie back the thread.
It took me about 6 months to recover from the hard and addictive medicines and pills from the doctor. The credit should actually go to Dr.Raman Khosla or being a big support for me. I would also like thanking THE ART OF LIVING workshops and meditation taught by the course. It did help me to move on but yet as I said “THE KNOT IS STILL LEFT”

With support from family and teachers I finally managed to make a new set of friends thinking that they are mine forever. That doesn’t mean im any more with them. But as I have preached I will still believe in the words “Betray and Ditch”
I’m trying to forget the past but it does not seem easy to do so.
Again… A thing that I never expected to happen just happened 21 hours ago.
And I’m trying to convince myself to understand the meaning of this sentence
“This will also pass”
And things once again MAY get back to normal.
And maybe if I find someone else to hold my hand
And if he/she lets go off me easily I surely will cry..
And will again need someone to give a shoulder to me.
That is what every human really needs in life other than luxuries and comforts.
And so do I !